Dietrich Bonhoeffer

The will of God involves giving our lives for the sake of others.“Christ’s vicarious deeds and particularly his death on our behalf, become in turn the principle and model of the self-sacrifice that makes community possible... the church is the church only when it exists for others.”-Dietrich Bonhoeffer

I successfully did a demo teaching in a Chinese Christian school today. To God be the glory! Because of His great love, we are not consumed. Great is His faithfulness.
The offer is good enough, I just don't understand the six days a week work schedule. How will I prepare for my lessons? Does this mean I will be giving up my Reading Workshop Saturdays?

On my way home, boarding a jeepney to Pag-asa, I met my former elementary schoolteacher. She happens to be my homeroom teacher when I was in grade six. She was all of a sudden explaining how to become a principal in a public school. Amazing how a masteral degree can do that for me!

Up to this day, I remember what it would be like to attend classes in one of the biggest public schools in Quezon City. The bathroom reeks with urine, the stench unbearable, chairs were lacking, the cramped rooms worsened the heat summer brings save for the humid air a single wall fan provides. I did my data gathering there and almost everyday, I would be weeping on my way home. My heart melts knowing that 90% of Filipino school children go to public school and until now, such despicable state breaks my heart each time I recall my three-week stint.

I do love to teach and sometimes, if I could only afford it, I would like to teach in the public school, maybe in grade one. I can imagine bringing all my storybooks, have a screen installed in the door and in the windows as an ounce of prevention against dengue. I would have lots and lots of crafts for the children, lots and lots of poetry and immersion in English as a second language so that they would understand the textbooks predominantly written in English. They would be lovers of words and life. Numbers will not become a threat and they will be full of dreams beyond them.

Sigh. I know I have the tendency to burden myself with the things I cannot solve completely. I do want to do something, however small or seemingly insignificant.
I continue to seek Your heart Oh God. I continue to seek Your face.

Please bless PACE and the kind principal who interviewed me today.

Lord, You are my Shepherd. Please direct my paths..

For I know the plans I have for you says the Lord. Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future.

You are sovereign dear Lord.