feverish

Its a bit past 7pm and Aidan's home with Grace. And I have been wondering why I am feeling weird the whole morning. Turns out I have slight fever. I think so. Aidan has it a bit full blown.

I've been feeling funny the whole day. I know I should attribute this mood swing to something-was it carbohydrate overload? pasta and brownies is a deadly combination, I guess. Sugar rush might be the culprit.

Amidst all the festivities and the trimmings, I feel empty I don't know why. I guess its a time to seek within. Why do I feel that Iam not yet in God's perfect will for my life.. and so I wait, I wait for God to open doors and as I wait Lord, help me wait with faith and expectancy.

I want to go out to be with friends but somehow, I feel like I should not, and I prefer to stay home and be with me first. iwonder if that sounds selfish, but its really what I want to do first.

Did my post have a lot of "I's" in it?

Is this self-centeredness altogether? There are a lot of things to lift up to God- Lord remind me to be thankful for the million and one things that Your grace has so generously bestowed upon us.

I know that how I feel should never be used as a yardstick to measure Your truths, Your promises and this is where faith enters.

Lord, I know that You are in control, help me in my unbelief.
Thank You because You died for that too.

Later blog.

Thanks for hearing me out..