Cold & Windy Santi

Let me post an excerpt from my email to my sister. Its ma's first day of fasting away. Do you sometimes feel a strange silence, a lull between you and some people you know or have lived with for a long time? It should'nt be the case, but it happens. Why is that? I think I know. just wanted to ask aloud or write aloud (?)Days like this when I am alone give me time to think and mull things over-the past, the present and the future.

Walking to SM for a jeepney ride in thoughtful reverie moistens my eyes. I blink several times to rub my eyes dry. The typhoon winds seem rush to my aide drying anything damp on my cheeks fast, especially whenever I feel into my pockets and discover I did not bring any hanky.

I can always sink to sadness and tears but I fight these back with God's word, ever faithful and true. When I cannot see anything, I remember God's promises, recite them over and over until all is well with my soul.

It looks like the typhoon decided to leave at once. Its windy but theres a lot of sunshine.

FOR I KNOW THE PLANS I HAVE FOR YOU SAYS THE LORD, PLANS TO PROSPER YOU AND NOT TO HARM YOU, PLANS TO GIVE YOU A HOPE AND A FUTURE. JEREMIAH 29:11

We are different

These words linger in my mind. I just put down the phone a couple of minutes ago. I did my aunt a favor. She texted me to call up my uncle in Sikatuna. Turns out, they were both at home. Someone had to pick up the phone to hear my voice. It was some guy she has been bugging me to meet. He is Filipino, residing in Canada, and is now back in the Philippines after twenty years.

And what my brother told me lingers in my mind. "We are different." Good thing Aidan cried. He soiled his pants and his nappies needed changing. My brother was on the phone. I had the most brilliant excuse to end the conversation.

We are a different people.

At this point, I am not sure I will ever settle down. I have witnessed a lot of marriages, and one thing that is most real of all is that of my parents' I guess this is why, I am at peace with the idea. All things work together for good to them who love God and are called according to His purposes.

Besides, I am a firm believer of Master---Mission----Mate.

God above all, His purpose for me through my giftings and talents and a companion would come last. although I am already a teacher, and enjoy it, but do get impatient at times, I am still at the Master part. I want to spend time alone with God first. I want to get to know Him more. I need time alone.

I believe in the Grand Weaver. I believe in His sovereignty over all things. This area included.

For I know the plans I have for You says the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future.


Im signing off.

Havent blogged for a long time.

I wait on You.

Whom have I in heaven but Thee, there is nothing on earth I desire besides Thee..

:)